"Spirit of God, Descend upon my Heart"      

Teach me to feel that Thou art always nigh.      Teach me the struggles of the soul to bear -           To check the rising doubt, the rebel sigh;          Teach me the patience of unanswered prayer.

                                     - George Croly

I found this poem in a book by Elizabeth Elliot, and I have felt that this has been the theme of this season of my life.  Over the past year, the Lord has been teaching me to entrust every area of my life to Him, surrendering my future, my finances, my all to Him with the knowledge that He will take care of everything, but in the midst of this lesson in trust the answers have not been coming quickly.  Most recently, I have been getting discouraged about support; I know that God will provide my every need for returing to Mexico, but I am just a little over halfway to my goal.  However, I am beginning to see that true trust is not one that only believes when we can see the answers tangibly, but rather it is a trust that continues while still being unable to see the answer.  Just as Abraham believed God and followed Him into the wilderness, not knowing where He was going, or just as Shadrach, Meshach, and Abed-nego walked into the furnace believing that God could deliver them from the fire, but not knowing with certainty whether or not He would, I believe our call as "Believers" is to step out in faith trusting God to fulfill His Word regardless of whether or not we are able to clearly see the fulfillment of it at this time.